A Little, Big Confession

So, it’s time to come clean and admit that I am fat. Real fat.

I tried running a second blog to focus on that, but found that my heart was here and on all the things Not Two Pennies is about.

Sure, the home-made foods that were increasingly vegetarian and the fact that I am generally more active have helped to stop my weight from climbing higher and higher.

That though is clearly not enough, I am a walker but not someone who generally seeks out exercise. I love food, and even though we have dramatically cut back on processed foods, fast food and snacks… well, we haven’t cut them out!

With my change to working from home about 14 months ago, I had become increasingly aware of my lack of any activity. Somewhat foolishly we earmarked and stored the very things that were supposed to help.

In our new green, clean and cheaper lifestyle the pedometers, running apps, smart weighing scales, exercise bike and so forth had to go.

I was regretting that decision and was planning to retrieve them from storage. Telling myself that when the day comes that I have instilled the habit of exercising, eating right and have reduced my weight to healthier levels then they can be sold, donated or upcycled.

Thing is, can I trust myself enough to have a smartphone for the purposes of tracking my daily activity (something that worked well for me in the past), to prompt me to move and teach me to run? Ha, never thought I’d be a runner.

Our electricity consumption would certainly increase a little once more, but what a small price for my [hopefully] guaranteed health? Heart disease, diabetes and gout run in the family and it’s time now that I take better care of myself.

However, I am glad to have reached a much more sustainable decision. Doctors all speak about time spent doing exercise, not miles or steps or anything else. When I was healthier in the past, all I simply did was walk.

And that is what I’ll do. I will walk and walk, and aim for a minimum number of daily minutes of walking. I’ll walk slowly, briskly and quickly. Yet that is all. Walk.

From the time before we stopped spending we have a cupboard full of this weird nutrient shake (Joylent) that I will now use-up to ensure I am getting all my body needs for the next 20 days. I will struggle with the headaches and shakes as my body adjusts to a world without sugars, salts, all manner of chemicals and most of all caffeine.

I won’t be buying more of this stuff, and will switch back to the diet I have previously explained here before. Local, organic, wholesome. A meat-free diet with some dairy and eggs.

In the past 24 hours since drafting this post I have had a change of heart, spurred on by some documentaries and some reading. I will in fact go fully vegan.

If the only way to reverse damage done by a western diet, of processed foods, meats, dairies and who knows what else, is to go 100% plant-based. Well then that is what I’ll do.

After the slightly sinister sounding nutrient shakes are gone (cannot waste food, even processed foods) I will try to do another 30 days. A reboot, a month of green juices similar to that seen in the documentary Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead. Seems that the guy has done well and has expanded and improved on his detox, which will be my guide.

So long as we can beg, borrow or steal a juicer that is.

These are only a means of escaping the negative cycles I am currently trapped in, and in 50 days I will revert to that local, organic, wholesome and vegan diet I had previously wrote about – minus the meat, eggs and dairy.

I do not mean diet in the sense of a painful and dangerous weight-loss course, but as a way of eating and as a lifestyle that helps me to lose and then maintain a health body.

I have set myself out a few aims, firstly to get under 100kg as fast as healthy and sensibly possible. Then to lose another 15kg, to reach 85 and then in the future an additional 15 to reach the upper limit of a healthy weight for my height – 70kg.

Today my weight stands at 106kg. I know other body measurements but surely weight is the thing that matters most. I cannot promise in the future that I won’t turn to running, training, cycling, weights and so on nor can I promise that in order to reach my ideal weight I won’t turn to smart devices for help and encouragement.

Yet, right now, right here, I can promise not to do these things and hope to show that being healthy can be done for less. Less money, less environmentally damaging methods and less consumer driven approaches.

Wish me luck. :)

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